I look back at the long missives I would post in prior blogs, and all I can see is someone externalizing internalized trauma. I now try to be humble with any opinions about politics or philosophy for that reason. Any one of my opinions may just be the symptom of some misplaced anger or unfulfilled desire.
This is why I move to quietism, I view philosophy as purely palliative, and I seek to improve what I can using the most pragmatic means. All while trying to minimize suffering for those beings around me.
I keep this in mind when I read the opinions of others. I also think this is why I am hypersensitive to those of a certain ideological bent; as trauma has helped me sniff out those making self-serving arguments for manipulative ends very effectively, and there has been quite a bit of that going around in the past 10 years.